and the long wait is over :D

after our choir practice last Sunday afternoon (Pampanga), I went straight to SM Megamall to meet my roomies, Nez and Ate Liezl. We roamed around, and I bought "something funny" for the monito-monita in the office...

We had dinner at 'OHANA (a Hawaiian resto) and ordered the luau that's good for four! Yes, we were a bit hungry. ;)

some Hawaiian words ;)

the wallpaper

the luau

The food was yummy, the ambience pang-family, and their jingle? Let's just say, it gave me the LSS (last song syndrome)


"Ohana means family, every one is family at 'Ohana, 'Ohana...



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But that's not all, folks! I have a good news for all the friends who helped me with my STICKERS. :D Your labor is not in vain! At long last, I got my STARBUCKS planner! :D

I was tired from the trip, and the window-shopping, but I can't help but rejoice after receiving the long-awaited, longed for planner. Ehehehe :)

There was just one tiny problem: My name was once again misspelled! :(

FYI: My name doesn't have an apostrophe!

P.S. Thanks Te Liezl for the pics :)

uhmmm... ;)

"ayos ba?"

-- RJ Jimenez

ehe-ehehe-ehehehe :D

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unclaimed blessing

last tuesday, during company devotions, the speaker used a phrase that struck me.

"unclaimed blessing"

he used this phrase to describe the group of people who we commonly call single or unattached...

then i asked myself...

"do i deserve to be called such as this point in my life?"

i really hope so.

;)

arvin ;)

Kahapon lang ay bata ka pa,
Kahapon lang ay inaaway kita
Kahapon nga lamang inuutusan pa

Di ko lang ba napansin
Ang paglipas ng panahon?
Nabigla na lamang ng mga taon?

Kanina lang ay kausap kita
Kanina lang tingin ko sayo’y nagbago na
Nagulat na lamang, binata ka na.

Labis nga ba kayang ako ay nalayo
Humiwalay mag-isa nang di napagtanto?
Di ko na alam, basta ang mahalaga…

Tingin ko sayo’y mag-iiba na
Di na ikaw ang batang maloloko ko pa
Kagulat-gulat ngang natuwa pa ako
Sa mga pagbabagong nakita sayo

Sa pinagdadaanan mo, di ka nag-iisa
Ang ate’y andito, pinagdadasal ka
Mahirap, masaya at kung ano pa
May kasama ka, kahit malayo pa.

kapag...

pag di na masaya, mananatili ba?
pag di na masaya, andyan ka pa rin ba?
pag di na masaya, san ka na pupunta?
pag di na masaya, may matatakbuhan ba?

pag naguguluhan pa, pano magpapasya?
pag naguguluhan pa, pano masasabing tama na?
pag naguguluhan ba, makakasama ka?
pag naguguluhan ba, matatakbuhan ka?

pag nagpasya na, susuportahan mo ba?
pag nagpasya na, matatanggap mo ba?
pag nagpasya na, mahaharap mo ba?
pag nagpasya na, mananatili ka ba?

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kung ano to'y di mo alam,
di rin batid ang inuukulan
pero sa katotohanan, ok lang
tanging ako ang may alam.

five things you probably don't know about me

I got tagged by turkangel pala. So habol ko na lang :) here's my list of five things you probably don't know about me:

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1. pangarap kong mag-eyeglasses at maging kulot nung bata pa ko. :) (was able to achieve the latter na, naturally ehehe)
2. I go senti when it’s rainy
3. I don’t eat “paksiw” and other fish dishes na may sabaw
4. atleast 2 na na may down-syndrome ang nagka-crush sakin. HAHAHA! :) habulin, literally! hehe :)
5. I used to think that watching movies is a sin. Hehe :)

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Now, I tag the tap dancer, gracie, te beng, badapski , and kax
Kayo naman!! :D

Palawan Getaway Day 1

Salamat kay Kuya Jon. :) O di ba, ang ganda? Ko at ng beach? Haha!

Ang saya mg team na to, pramis. Miss na namin ang dalawang Japanese na 'to. :)

Ang saya mag-snorkeling!

Honda Bay Tour na agad!

Pagdating ng Puerto Princesa...

Bale, mula sa baba, pataas ang kwento nito. hehe :)

I FELL IN LOVE IN PALAWAN

I can never live in the sea. I was, no make that AM, too afraid of the creatures that live (and crawl!) in the water. I don’t know how to swim, and sometimes I think I’m hydrophobic.

However, this vacation in Palawan made me realize that I may never live in the sea, but I sure will love to visit. :)

I fell in love in Palawan. I fell in love with Palawan. And I will never forget it. Why? Here are some reasons:

First, we (me plus ate Analyn and Kuya Jon) got very cheap airfares—thanks to Cebu Pacific’s 10th Year Anniversary Promo last March. We only paid P20.00 for the airfare but P1,632.00 for tax. BUT that’s still cheap. Thanks again, Cebu Pacific! :)

Second, we were able to have some tips for our accommodations and tours, courtesy of Ate Beng. :) She visited Palawan last August and took brochures of appartelles and tour agencies.

Third, the whole tour and adventure was F-U-N! Not to mention timely. Life has been stressful, work too. And the vacation was very much welcome.

Fourth, I learned to face some of my fears of the water. I thought, I’m in Palawan and I only have two options: make the most out of it or sulk, sleep and lock myself in my room. Clearly, I was wise enough. :) (Not to mention the fact that I already paid for the tour package and accommodations!) Duh, no-brainer! Haha :)

Fifth, there was an almost zero stress. Almost, because there were times when I can’t help but think of work. Oh well… I think I’m on the road to workaholism! My goodness!

Sixth, my Palawan adventure experience was also supported with an equally exciting delicious FOOD experience. We got to dine in good restaurants with good food at GOOD prices! And if you know me, you’ll know that I ate sumptuous meals at affordable prices. ;) (Though I sometimes splurge!) It’s almost like a dream come true! Haha :D


Seventh, I got to do some snorkeling, and actually enjoyed it. You know me, I really get nervous (oftentimes panicky) in deep waters. But with a guide, I was able to love the whole experience. I was able to meet (and greet!) beautiful sea habitants, corals and different kinds of fishes of wonderful, magnificent colors, schools of fishes of various kinds, shapes and sizes… I also got an introduction to the overly protective Territorial Damsel Fish, which left two marks on me (I was bitten on the right leg). The experience, at first was scary, but come to think of it, it was ok. Kuya Jon even has his own funny story. Haha!

Eighth, I got a chance to see Nature again, in all its beauty and wonder. The Underground River Adventure was awesome! The hundreds of years the Lord spent for the mountains were not put to waste. There are lots of people admiring His works of art, and I hope, they’re able to credit it all to the Creator of all those things -- bright and beautiful. :)

Ninth, the whole city of Puerto Princesa boasts of its being the cleanest city in the Philippines. You won’t find it hard to look for a trashcan. :) Clearly, its local government is doing a good job about their tourism… Claps for Mayor Edward S. Hagedorn! ;) When I grow up…. Haha! :p

Tenth, and definitely not the least, I felt that the Lord has blessed us so much in this trip. The rain’s timing was ok with us, because it rained after our tours. :) And His provision was never short. We were even able to bring home some pasalubongs!


There, I really fell in love in and with Palawan. I encourage you all to visit it some time during your lifetime.

Wag maging dayuhan sa sariling bayan.

AND SO… drum rolls please!


NEXT PROJECT: BOHOL!!! Yeah!

Pictures!

Sa Hong Kong International Airport. Pauwi na to!

Breakfast sa YMCA International House

Oo na, masarap maglibot at mag-shopping!

Ang Hong Kong sa gabi...

Me, Ate Grace and RAR (the bossing!)

Deadma sa iba, di sila significant. hehe :)

We've done a lot of walking in Hong Kong. BUT we're happy. :)

to Palawan

Had a great time in Hong Kong.

I love Chinese.

I meant the food. ;)

Will tell you more about the trip soon…

Meantime, I’ll be off to Palawan this Sunday.

And this time, I’m excited. :D

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeh!

to Hong Kong

I’m flying to Hong Kong. Tomorrow.

I should be excited.

Yeah.

Maybe hours before departure I’ll be.

Right now, I’m still stressed.

Pray for me.

Thanks.

26 things I thank the Lord for (this year)... part 3

21. Self-expression. There are ways for people to express how they feel or the things they wish to convey. I thank the Lord for helping me discover mine. There is an artist in me that you have yet to see. [It seldom shows itself, pramis!] Also, you must know that there are different forms of art. Hehe ;) By the way, I may not be a good artist, but I thank the Lord for the ability to see and appreciate the art others create. :)

22. Confidence. I'm not the most confident person, I'm still afraid of lots of things, but little by little, the Lord gives me the confidence that I need, when I need it.

23. Forgiveness. I lost count already of how many times I have been forgiven for my mistakes and faults. Friends have been gracious, and merciful. Thanks for your patience, guys!

24. Moments alone. It is during those moments of being alone that I am able to slow down, look back and look ahead. I call them "senti moments" for that is what they are. I can be the me not many people see.

25. OMF Literature Inc. I will never forget the people that make this company a family. I will never forget the valuable lessons I learned during the 4 years of being here. I love the people; the variety and commonality. I am excited to see what greater things the Lord has in store for us in this ministry. :)

26. Waaah! Bakit ba kasi 26 lang?! I thank the Lord for making me feel like I’m the most special person in the world last July. That is, the whole month of July! I thank the Lord for the people who went out of their way to make my birthday month FUNtastic! Salamat po sa kabutihan at kabaitang ipinakita nyo sa akin. Naka-record po ang lahat ng mga ginawa Nyo sa aklat ko. Hehe J

26 things i thank the Lord for (this year) continued

11. Filipino Heroes. It always touches my heart in a very unique way whenever I learn of Filipinos who are doing excellently in their fields, bringing honor to our country. They somehow give me hope, and encourage me to continue loving my country.

12. Disappointments and pains. I found a way to see things, no matter how painful or hurtful they are, in a way that will strengthen me. These helped me to trust the Lord more and be comforted in the truth that He knows full well what He is doing and allowing to happen.

13. Laughter. There are times when things get stressful and demanding, and when I laugh, things get a bit lighter.

14. Opportunities. The Lord opens doors for me to see more of what He can do through me. There is also this thing that I can't tell you yet. Soon... :)

15. Love. There are times when I ask the Lord why up to now, I'm still single. Is it because I'm scary? [ang mag-agree dito uumbagin ko! Hehe] There are lots of things that I'm still afraid of, and most of the time He reminds me that He loves me and cares for me, He is more than enough. At kung meron mang para sa akin o wala, He will never stop loving me. :)

16. Grace. I'm reading Philip Yancey's What's So Amazing About Grace? [I never got the chance to finish it in college, so I'm trying my best to finish it this time.] Through this book, I made resolutions to be a bit more gracious. I won't tell you details so you won't expect too much from me. Hehe :)

17. New discoveries. I learned a few things that I can be good at, and I thank the Lord for these new discoveries. I may not be the best person in the eyes of many people, but I'm praying that some of the things I do (yeah, not all, though that should be the goal) bring a smile to His face.

18. Technology. I am not techie, nor a gadget addict. But I thank the Lord for the developments in our technology: making communication a lot easier, work more efficient, life more convenient though sometimes bit more complicated... Nevertheless, I appreciate the things that I understand and the things that I will soon learn about. There is no end to learning!

19. Hopes and Dreams. I have collected lots of dreams and wishes since I was a kid, and yes, not all of them were for me, but I thank the Lord for allowing me to dream, and for giving me hope that the best is yet to come. :)

20. Appreciation/Acceptance. I learned from experience that we can learn to appreciate and accept things or people when we decide to do so. Sometimes we fail to see the "beauty" or the good in them because we have decided even before knowing them that we don't like them. [Does this make sense?]

26 Things I thank the Lord for (this year)

1. Family. This year, I was given the opportunity to really feel and know that I'm needed. And at the same time see and acknowledge the fact that I need them in more ways than one.

 

2.  Friends. People who love me for what I am, who understand me and the peculiarity of my ways, who know me yet still love me.

 

3. Music. In spite and despite of me being me, He still allows me to sing. He gives music to my days whatever my mood or situation is.

 

4. Provision. Never, as in never ever have I lacked in anything that I need. The Lord's provision is always enough, and never late. Most of the time, He gives more than what I need, to be able to have some of what I want.

 

5. Health. By God's grace, I didn't need to file an SL (Sick Leave) throughout my almost 4 years of serving Him in OMFLit. :) (I'm turning 4 on the 29th!)

 

6. Protection. I commute to and from work daily, and I can always sense His protection over me. Thanks, Lord! :)

 

7. Wisdom. Counsel and wisdom of "more experienced" people helped me see different perspectives. Sometimes I learn from their experiences both good and bad.

 

8. Books. I work in a publishing company, and I learned to appreciate good books. They talk to me like good friends.:)

 

9. Choir. I haven't been able to sing with the choir back home lately, but I thank the Lord for them because I know they'll still accept me and forgive me for my misgivings.

 

10.High School friends. It's been years since I last saw them all but I always enjoy the times when we get together.

 

 

obviously, to be continued... hehehe

birthday wish

This birthday is medyo kakaiba for me. I can't really say na I have a WISH!

 

But since I was forced by some people to wish... hmmm... top of mind: GRACE, that is for me to be gracious to others, and to those who will need it. At dahil medyo matinding pananalangin ang kailangan dito, samahan nyo ko sa pagdulog sa Panginoon. :)

 

Isa pa, pwede? Birthday ko naman. ehehe :) a better Philippines, meaning a better Filipino. Kaya ito, effortan naman nating lahat.

 

Ayun po. :)

 

Happy birthday sa akin! :) Yung mga nakakalimot, may ilang oras pa kayo!  Hehehe :)

far away

have you ever felt like you are so far away?

like you're miles away from people you love, people you value, people you care for, your family?

yeah, it's sad. no, make that VERY sad.

there was a time in my life that i feared the feeling of being extremely sad. i made a decision to turn down an opportunity to work somewhere far because i felt that i will be very alone there... no close friends, no family. i don't regret making that decision, but sometimes i wonder how my life would have been if i didn't stay here...

how different my point of views, ways of thinking, ways of living, lifestyle might have been... would i be the "me" that i am now?

i have a friend working somewhere in the middle east. he left to work there as an architect with a one-year contract last May. [by the way he asked for his name to be spelled as R-I-C-H-A-R-D G-E-E-R-E should i want to mention him here. so i wont mention his name na lang. haha!]

it was actually his idea that i write something about "US. R LYF HIR" being far away... he went to work there last May and he told me how awfully sad it is to be so far... he cried for days! and he's not ashamed of it. big boys do cry. :)

so i asked him, "do you still cry now?" he said "not that much. though minsan nalulungkot pa rin."

he learned lessons about independence and interdependence. "you meet people of different races, get to mingle with them, and learn about their culture (he told me there are egyptian guys who don't take a bath for a week, and wear the same clothes to work. sa culture daw kasi nila "pag lalo bumabaho dun sila lalong lalaki sa mga babae sa kanila"), pero ang mabigat dito ay yung Law. sanay kasi tayo sa democracy. plus we can't worship freely!"

"mahirap nga... pero kahit ba paano may sense of fulfillment?"
"i really can't say pa... medyo? lalo na nakakapagpadala ako dyan kahit paano..."

of course, he knows why he is there so when i asked "hmmm... masaya ka ba ngayon?" he replied with "in a way siguro oo na. andito na ko eh so i must enjoy na lang and go on to meet my goals... the show must go on, ika nga! hehe"

the world won't stop revolving even when you're sad.

life goes on, we move on. we make the most out of it.

**oh, by the way, he also mentioned that he has 3 or4 gay-stalkers there which makes his life a bit difficult. hmmm... interesting. haha :)

sweet

that's one thing i'm not. and most of my close friends know that. i rarely express anything that can include me in the "sweet people" category. "brutal" mught be more appropriate. :)

but in my attempt to be "sweet", i went home last Saturday after doing my laundry, with a gift for my mom. :) it's easier to please my mom that's why. and i don't want to be disappointed the first time i make a conscious move. :)

what surprised me is this: when i arrived home, looking and feeling tired of course, i asked what's for dinner. ehehe :)

seriously, when i told my mom i have something for her, we went to their room, and i gave her my gift. nothing fancy, but something nice and pretty, syempre. something she can wear in the office, etc. ;) she liked it of course, i know her taste! :) but after that, i was the one surprised! she gave me the poncho i wasn't able to bring the last time i went home because it wasn't dry yet, a new skirt, and a new blouse.

di ko kinaya. mas mahal talaga ako ng nanay ko. i no longer depend on her for the things i need, but she still thinks of me and the things i might like. i used to "okray" my mom's fashion sense. but now that i think about it, it doesn't really matter. it's the thought that counts! very much. :)

Why the World Doesn't Need Superman

Yun ang title ng Pulitzer Prize award-winning article ni Lois Lane.

 

Ehehe ;p

 

Ang gwapo ni Clark Kent. Ahahay. :)

 

 

simple pleasures ;)

been tagged by kuya don medyo matagal na. got the chance to do the list just now... so, here's my list of top 10 simple pleasures (in no particular order):

1. singing: choruses, commercial jingles (ehehe)
2. conversations: funny, musical, serious and kababawan
3. laughing: at myself, my corny jokes, and other people's funny hirits
4. brewed coffee in the office
5. doing my laundry with no time pressure :)
6. journal writing while talking to myself
7. leisure walks alone or otherwise
8. making a baby sleep in my arms while humming lullabies [miss ko na si nathan! pati si daniel ni te malou!]
9. coloring books :)
10. watching movies, soaps, etc. with friends and family

who to tag next, who to tag next? :)
kyaleks, gracie, te beng, daps, bijoi, ningning -- your turn! :p

o sha, pati na nga ikaw din, kax! ;)

bagong gupit!

ayun na nga po ang nangyari, dahil sa paanyaya ni ate beng na subukan ang salon sa tapat ng bagong building namin (na may sine-serve na free iced tea!), nagpagupit kami pareho! ehehe :)

at dahil alam naming di na katulad ang "look" kinabukasan, kinailangang ipakita na sa mga "workaholic officemates" na nasa opisina pa pagkatapos namin sa parlor, ang "bago" naming buhok! at na-gandahan naman sila... takot lang nilang magbigay ng di kaaya-ayang comment!

pero eto lang nadiscover ko: mas ok palang maging makulit sa parlor kesa tahimik lang at seryoso! hehe :) andami naming nadiskubre sa "top hairstylist" na gumupit sa amin! mostly, nakakatawa... kesyo dati daw syang lalaki, at nakalimot mula nang ma-aksidente sa motor... nagka-amnesia sya kaya nya nakalimutang lalaki sya! hahaha :D pero kahit ganon, award-winning ang lolo(a)h mo! syempre, naikwento nya ang mga competitions na sinalihan nya...

at sa palagay ko, tama sya. winner talaga sya. walang kaduda-duda, lalong lumutang ang kagandahan namin! as in! bwahahaha! ;D

at dahil naaaliw ko na ang sarili ko, at ayoko nang malaman pa ang sasabihin nyo sa curly hair ko, di ko na lang i-popost yung pic na pinakuha ko pagdating sa office. dyahe naman sa inyo pag inaway ko kayo sa blog ko. hehehe ;)

ayun, na-share ko lang... wala lang. ;p

so pano na? ingat kayo!

(shut up, ningning!)

(isa ka pa, dap!)

(ate beng, wag ka na hihirit! ;p)

(pigilan mo sarili mo, kyaleks!)

(uhm, gracie... wag na.)

bagay ba sa kin ang kulot? ehihihi ;p

ayon sa proverbs

Proverbs 17:17

A friend loves at all times,

and a brother is born for adversity.

 

Proverbs 27:4 - 6

 

Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming

but who can stand before jealousy?

 

Better is open rebuke than hidden love.

 

Wounds from a friend can be trusted,

but an enemy multiplies kisses.

 

 

Proverbs 27:9

Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart

and the pleasantness of one's friend

springs from his earnest counsel

epekto nga ba ng ulan?

nakaka-senti ang ulan.
utak ko'y pumupunta kung saan saan.
mga pangyayari sa nakaraan,
may kasayaha't kalungkutan din naman.

epekto ng ulan sa iba'y di ko alam
pero ang alam ko lang, sa aki'y kasentihan.
lalo na ngayong pakiramdam ko'y nawalan
ng isang taong mayro'ng kahalagahan.

di ka naman nawala o naglaho ng bigla
sa akin ay di lingid ang gan'tong balita
pero kahit gano'y di pa rin pala handa.
kaya andito ngayon, walang magawa
kundi ang magsulat at gumawa ng tula.

disiplina

mahirap kalabanin ang sarili...

 

 

pero kaya.

on relationships

yah, i know. february is already eons ago and talking about relationships is something that's off the season... well, not for me.

i recently shared with some officemate-friends how Charles Ringma's book, Whispers from the Edge of Eternity has been intimately touching my life: my way of thinking, my way of living, my outlook. and one thing that struck me is his 44th entry.

you see, i used to read an entry a night during my quiet time. however, there was a month when i had to think and rethink about the message, the whole point of a single entry, for two to three days! you may think it "slow" of me but before you think further, you must understand that Ringma writes in a way that is symbolic, meditational and oftentimes contemplative. a way which not many people appreciate, others even find too deep to the point of being boring. well again, not so much for me.

most of the time, his way of writing, and way of thinking speak to me quite well. he doesn't aim to make you emotional, but he makes you reflect. he won't drive you to tears, but will lead you to think.

so what about entry number 44?

i've never seen Luke 19:1-5 in the way he saw it. for how could the story where Jesus saw Zacchaeus from the sycamore-fig tree be a passage about relationships? how could that simple order, asking the little tax collector to come down from the tree be about "being present to" (this phrase will be explained further)? yes, it did amaze me. Scripture indeed comes afresh to us every time we read it...

now, about relationships. ehehe :)

He started with "Relationships form the very fabric of our existence..." our very being is the fruit of a very intimate relationship. and this very being is shaped by both the "beauty and pain" caused by those other relationships that come along our way as we get older.

it is no doubt because of God's grace, life's miracles, that even in the unpleasant experiences of life, certain gifts emerge provided however, that we have the right attitude...

i know of people who went through lots of difficult times and ended up with new gifts. and they won't trade the lessons they learned from their experiences for anything.

relationships should be meaningful. but sadly, due to the many influences of the western world to us, we have been too programmatically and individualistically driven that even if we do things for others, we forget how to work with them. churches became "social clubs" that "reach out" through service only. (there's nothing wrong about doing service for others, don't get me wrong). they are with the people but they are not truly there.

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"to love someone is not first of all to do things for them, but to reveal to them their beauty and value". --Jean Vanier--

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meaningful relationships require a special kind of presence. the kind that is being present to. it involves much contemplation, and is not just any kind of presence. "It is the presence of love which allows us to see truly. To see truly is to see not only what is there but is so often hidden, but to see what is potentially there. Thus it is a seeing in hope. It is eschatological and visionary. It sees what will yet come to be, and calls this forward and into being."

In this sense relationships are empowering because they move us from where we are to where we can be.

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I've been thinking if there was ever an instance in my life when I have been present to. Was I ever a visionary when it came to people... in a way that is obvious to the person concerned?

I have always been protective of myself. I was friendly, I was not shy around people, BUT I seldom let them get close. I don't invest much in relationships. And I don't want to be too attached. I was afraid of getting myself in the middle of hurtful or unpleasant situations.... again.

One way of looking at it is i don't want people to have the potential to hurt me. see the emphasis on "potential"? Yeah. maybe i was/am paranoid.

that maybe is just one of the many reasons why the Lord allowed Ringma's words to speak to me. para iuntog ako, gisingin, at himuking magbago.

i'm not saying that i no longer have that fear... but i'd like to think that now that i am fully aware of it, i am now open to the idea of changing my mind, and allowing people to truly see me without the pretensions, self-protections (e.g. pagtataray), and yes, even paranoia.

Ringma, and some recent events in my life connived to do this on me. and for these, i'm thankful. and yes, if you're wondering, l'd like to have more meaningful relationships. **wink.**

caffeine fasting

ate beng: chocolate
kuya aleks: softdrinks
and for me: coffee!


ate beng: due to a daily chocolate feasting since January.
kyaleks: due to an evident addiction to Coke (coca cola po ha)
me: due to a two-mugs-a-day intake of brewed coffee in the office.

ate beng: a personal decision.
kyaleks: a dare.
me: a dare to the dare.

ate beng: will be done on april 7
kyaleks: will start on april 5
me: will TRY to start on april 5.

ate beng: about to be successful
kyaleks: thinks he'll be successful
me: uhmmm... HOPES to be successful

Oh, Caffeine! Oh Caffeine!
because of the love of caffeine!
We all have to endure such pain,
But hopefully there'll be something to gain.

pagbabalik-tanaw

I have a friend graduating tomorrow. It's been a long time since we last communicated. But I know he's doing good. :)

 

I remember we had a duet when we were in grade school pa. Sa sobrang tagal, di ko na matandaan yung song. I can only remember these lines:

 

"Hindi ko sasayangin, araw ng aking kabataan

Si Hesus na nagmamahal sa akin, aking paglilingkuran"

 

Nung nagkukwentuhan kami, nung nasa college na, alam pa nya yung song! Siguro nga bata pa lang kami, inabsorb na nya ang mensahe.

 

Bata pa lang, alam kong malayo ang mararating nya. Alam kong isa sya sa mga taong "I will look up to" in the future.

 

Meantime, ookrayin ko na lang muna sya... Hehehe :) Ng personal. Dyahe naman kasi, baka di na sya galangin ng kongregasyon nya.

 

Congrats, Jay-Ar! :)

 

Iniwan mo ang UP para sumunod sa gusto ni Lord, at alam ko'ng desire din yun ng heart mo kaya doble ang saya... May the Lord use you mightily kung saan ka Nya dalhin. May you be a blessing to the people you will be shepherding.

 

At sa pagiging Pastor mo, maraming buhay sana ang mabago. :)

 

 

 

birthday mo

Last year, pinaka-memorable

Last year, pinakamakulay

Last year, pinakamasaya

Last year, wala ka pero ramdam ka.

 

This year, gusto mong malimot

This year, windang at magulo

This year, tila ka malungkot

This year, andito ka pero parang wala.

 

Next year, dasal ko'y mag-iba

Next year, may kapayapaa't pag-asa

Next year, kakaibang ligaya

Next year, malay mo, may kasama ka pa! ;)

 

samantala, ngayon, habang wala ka pa don

may mga kaibigan ka na panghabang panahon

tumigil man ang mundo't magpahirap sayo

di ka nila iiwan, at sila'y kasama mo.

 

last year andun sila

this year ganun pa din

next year di papalya

at sa mga susunod pa.

 

pagkakakilanlan

bakit mas madaling magsulat pag na-eemong ka?

bakit di masyado pag ikaw ay masaya?

bakit masayang basahin ang buhay ng iba,

o kaya'y pakinggan ang mga kwento nila?

 

di ko mawari kung bakit ganito

ano'ng pagkakaiba pag ikaw ay lito!

di ka naman baliw, pero daig pa ang trumpo

sa pag-ikot ng utak sa kung anu-ano...

 

mula sa trabaho, sa bahay man at kapilya

kaibigan, kamag-anak, kapuso't kapamilya

lahat ng klaseng tao, nakasalamuha mo na

alam mo na kaya kung sino ka talaga?

 

impluwensya ng iba'y di maikakaila

ayon sa kasaysaya'y sa dayuhan nagmula.

ano'ng mangyayari pag di mo na alam,

tunay na sarili'y tuluyang mamaalam.

 

ano'ng kalungkutan, sakdal kasawian,

daig pa ang isang buhay ay binawian!

pano isasalba ang nakubling katayuan

kung ikaw sa sarili'y mayro'n nang kalayuan?

 

kailan ang liwanag kaya ay daratal,

tunay na kulay mo'y tuluyang tatanglaw

pakpak mong tinikom muling makakampay

panibagong simulang kambal ay tagumpay!

 

 

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bunga ng ilang minutong gutom at pagod bago umuwi mula sa opisina.

salamat kay lulalei, sa pagtaktak ng utak. ;)

 

sayo 'to

o ayan na.
nakwento ko na sayo.
ang dahilan kung bakit
nalungkot ako.

di ko pa nun kaya
kaya kinailangang mag-isa
at nung ok na
ayu't nalaman mo na.

alam ko'ng disappointing
ang di ko pag-imik
pero alam kong na-gets mo
kaya't di na nangulit.

salamat na lamang
at kaibigan kita,
di na kailangang
ako'y magtago pa.

salamat sa pag-unawa
na ito'y aking paraan
upang matanggap at maharap
ang sitwasyong mahirap.

at sa katotohanan?
ikaw lang ang may alam nyan.
at sana alam mong
ika'y pinagkakatiwalaan.

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*wink, wink*

bwahahaha! :p

comfortable silence

i was never known for silences. 

for i can't stand noiseless moments.

 

i am not comfortable.

 

it is only when alone that i am.

with my journal and pen, my pillow and bed.

 

i travel, i fly and no one will notice.

i scream and i yell and no one will hear.

i am free and alive.

unpretentious and true.

 

if i could only let you read through me!

the pages i've been hiding,

the me you ain't seen.

 

only then will you know and fully understand

the me in the midst of comfortable silence.

 

O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

You perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;

You are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

You know it completely, O Lord.

-- Psalm 139: 1-4

 

Thank You, O Lord.

For You know me and love me.

In my silences, You are there.

 

You hear my cries and deepest longings,

My anger or rage, my hurts and my pains

You know me completely, yet You still care for me.

 

And now that You seem silent,

When I'm unsure of what You will

I'll trust in Your heart, Lord.

 

I will be comfortable.

on guys

one way to know how good or bad a guy is, is the MRT.