far away
have you ever felt like you are so far away?
like you're miles away from people you love, people you value, people you care for, your family?
yeah, it's sad. no, make that VERY sad.
there was a time in my life that i feared the feeling of being extremely sad. i made a decision to turn down an opportunity to work somewhere far because i felt that i will be very alone there... no close friends, no family. i don't regret making that decision, but sometimes i wonder how my life would have been if i didn't stay here...
how different my point of views, ways of thinking, ways of living, lifestyle might have been... would i be the "me" that i am now?
i have a friend working somewhere in the middle east. he left to work there as an architect with a one-year contract last May. [by the way he asked for his name to be spelled as R-I-C-H-A-R-D G-E-E-R-E should i want to mention him here. so i wont mention his name na lang. haha!]
it was actually his idea that i write something about "US. R LYF HIR" being far away... he went to work there last May and he told me how awfully sad it is to be so far... he cried for days! and he's not ashamed of it. big boys do cry. :)
so i asked him, "do you still cry now?" he said "not that much. though minsan nalulungkot pa rin."
he learned lessons about independence and interdependence. "you meet people of different races, get to mingle with them, and learn about their culture (he told me there are egyptian guys who don't take a bath for a week, and wear the same clothes to work. sa culture daw kasi nila "pag lalo bumabaho dun sila lalong lalaki sa mga babae sa kanila"), pero ang mabigat dito ay yung Law. sanay kasi tayo sa democracy. plus we can't worship freely!"
"mahirap nga... pero kahit ba paano may sense of fulfillment?"
"i really can't say pa... medyo? lalo na nakakapagpadala ako dyan kahit paano..."
of course, he knows why he is there so when i asked "hmmm... masaya ka ba ngayon?" he replied with "in a way siguro oo na. andito na ko eh so i must enjoy na lang and go on to meet my goals... the show must go on, ika nga! hehe"
the world won't stop revolving even when you're sad.
life goes on, we move on. we make the most out of it.
**oh, by the way, he also mentioned that he has 3 or4 gay-stalkers there which makes his life a bit difficult. hmmm... interesting. haha :)
8 comments:
poignant post, this is, gladweiss. thanks for sharing. =)
i have a friend who's a "gaymagnet," too. kagabi lang nga e, muntik na namang ma-pickup. =P
e papaano naman kung ikaw ang naiwan then yung mahal mo yung so far away?
example siya nasa QC then me nasa pampanga. diba sad din un?
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wala akong masabi..mahirap minsan pag di mobasta basta makita yung pamilya mo..pero kaya nga may friends..to help you cope with those lonely moments..hehe..wow serious..
thanks for visiting, merilion! :) ewan ko ba, andaming gaymagnets sa mundo! ehehe :p poignant? really? hehe, di naman mashado, unang balak ko nga tipong feature-type na reporting ang gagawin ko eh... siguro sa susunod na lang. :)
kung-sino-ka-man:
well, in a way, that is sad din. pero iba pa rin pag countries ang difference sa distance di ba? qc is relatively nearer to pampanga than saudi, canada or the US... :)
you can go to qc everyday if you wish, but there are lots of constraints just to visit someone countries or continents away...
but then again, i'm not just talking about measurable distance here... :)
kax, there is a serious part of you that you rarely show to people... yeah, friends. :) you have lots of them nga di ba? hehehe ;)
lots of them? of course :) pero meron akong mga namimiss din..hmm..serious part..eh kung wala namang dahilang mag super serious eh bakit pa, nakakatanda yun ng mas mabilis :D
but i'm serious when i'm alone..in the bathroom. =p
hay, karl... iba ka talaga. hehe :p bahala ka sa buhay mo! ehehe ;p
Sad to be away from friends and family, but there's the opportunity to make new friends..make a new family? Hehe. I wondered if I went to study in UPLB, how different would I turn out? Nice blog, Glads.
salamat, paparooh. hehe :) you're life would have been very different! malamang di mo na-meet si mamarooh, wawa ka naman. hehehe :)
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